Journal Entry 3/13/25
• I was supposed to get paid today. It was only for one day but I didn't. You'd think a company as big as walmart would be on top of things like that. Apparently or HR person didn't log in our hours in time for us to get a check for our orientation.
I haven't asked the other employees that were at our orientation last week of they got paid for that day yet, I'll have to do that tomorrow.
The problem with having a stalker that convinces the people I work with including my bosses is that when something like this happens it immediately triggers me a bit. I don't show it, but my first thought is always "did he get to them yet, did he get them to do something to inconvenience me?"
It just goes to show that there is never a time when I am not on guard, I know that everything that happens isn't his doing. But, the fact that it's always there in the back of my mind, that I'm never able to just relax because it's always only a matter if time before he starts to use the new people at a new job to harass or mess with me.
•And, on another note, I'm pretty sure this would be considered a "gift" I'm terms of stalking. But also a firm of a threat or reminder that he's always watching and listening.
I've recently told people publicly about how he must be compensatig the people he gets to join in on his abuse through third party contact. The example I have was that fellow employees were able to afford things that there was no way they should have been able to afford, like $900 shoes.
Well, guess what showed up on the porch of the main house. Balenciaga sneakers, valued at between $200-$300 used. Much more if new.
Need I point out that I live in what is probably he most sketchy mobile home park in the Denton area? There's no way one of my house mates can afford something like this on their $1,500/month retirement or what they claim is only a $9/hr job. They can't, or won't, even pay their part of the electric or water bills.
Maybe that's the point and why he, most likely, got one of them to put these by the front door. Some juvenile attempt to make it look like people who depend on food stamps, or food banks, can afford shoes that cost half of what our cars cost.
Not to mention that I've never seen either of the women who live here wear them and who the hell would leave expensive shoes sitting out in all this garbage (which isn't mine, I have no authority over what crap they leave laying around the yard or in the porch to the main house, I'm just in need of the cheap rent)
It's like he is trying to disprove what I'm saying about how he must me paying people to participate in my abuse by literally paying someone to be mentally abusive. It's indirect gas lighting. And it's more stalking, harassment and hacking.
People may think something like this is harmless, but it's not, it's not un noticeable and it's mentally stressful.
I shouldn't have to constantly feel like my conversations are being listened to or read by someone who has no right to be in my life in any way shape or form.
This may seem line a little thing, but it's not. The fact that he does this means he will continue to try to control everything around me, that I dint have the freedom to do, so it be with whoever I want because at the flip of a switch he'll take offense to something or just not like something that he has no say in, that doesn't effect him in any way and just because he feels life it he'll use his intrusion into my life to do something.
Sometimes it's getting people to be aggressive and try to start a fight, or damage something of mine, or something like my favorite shirt goes missing when I'm in the bathroom at the laundry mat and my clothes haven't even fully dried yet, or I get poisoned. All at his whim.
It's not ok, it's messed up and it's criminal.
