Journal Entry 3/14/25

●So, turns out that none of the new hires got paid for their orientation day, it'll be on our next check. 

Which just goes to show how being stalked and harassed for the past couple years messed with me perception of everything that happens around me. 

It impacts my life in a daily basis and had warped my reality. Something that may continue for years to come even if the stalking stops for good. It's something that will never be over for me, even when it's over. 

● I've almost forgot to document this incident from March 9th. I finally decided to get back on fb so I can use some of the features and connect with friends again. 

This is either a fake profile in which he is having the profile of someone I know Copied. Or, he is convincing the person to message me this. 

Just a couple of days after downloading and logging back on I get this message from a long time "friend" who I've never met in person. 

The stalker has on several occasions shared with me motivational videos on YouTube. Some you can tell are not the original speech by the speaker it's supposed to be made by. Since give straight out cake information, others have said weird things in response to something I've said out loud shortly prior to the video being posted. 

Like one by Abraham Hicks once responded to me saying something about needn't a hug by randomly placing the phrase "somebody needs a hug" I'm the middle of the speech in a way where that phrase just didn't even make sense bring there, just like it's being said out of nowhere.

I think others have things in it that are intended to subconsciously make me think, react or do something. I don't have an example of that one as of yet, any may not since I'm bit wanting to encourage the behavior by watching the things his profiles send me. 

This is the massage sent to me. I've redacted the picture and mane of who is from for the public, but will be making a copy for my physical journal in case it's needed by the authorities or for a future case against my abuser.


●About my family's involvement: I know it's no excuse for their behavior, but just like he poisoned me so that I couldn't work and pay my bills to make me need him. I'm petty sure he convinced my to participate in that abusive behavior so I would cut ties with them. He is a highly manipulative individual. 

He asked me to move to Dallas a whole 2 weeks after our first night together. I knew better than to move that quickly with someone like him. I explained to him that for the time being I needed to live near my family. 

He must have started manipulating them to turn us against each other so that I'd eventually turn to him after they betrayed me... he got us to turn on each other and made me not want him even more. 

I had a rule that I date for a year before moving in with someone because I know what kind of guys are attracted to me. And that within a year i usually see someone'strue colors. I was right and saw enough of his in 9 months. 

All he's had to do was wait. Now, I want nothing to with him except to put him in prison and sue the crap out of him for all the damage he caused. 

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