Journal Entry 3/18/25

●Today was the must difficult day ever. The exchange of custody of my youngest son was finalized.

When I handed him off to his dad two years ago I thought I was going to figure it what this guy did to me life, get him to leave me alone and then get things back on track within a few months. 

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