My Lesson At The Sandwich Shop

The types of things my stalker is getting Pele to try to convey to me almost sees like he's tent too get people to show me that if I stay quiet and don't complain air the abuse, If I just b take it, I could have the same life that I would be ante to give to myself if he weren't stealing and abusing me...

So, the first thing he did was get an old coworker of mine to yell me they could help me get a job at the sandwich shop. This was a weird thing for that particular employee to even say considering I was his boss, I left in good terms, I was excellent at my job and there was no reason for the company too not rehire me if I wanted the job. 

I didn't need someone to help me get it, it was already mine if I wanted it. 

I could tell that my old friend had been on contact with my abuser, usually those who have been either gas light me, or seem like what I'm telling them about him is some kind of amazing secret or something to be in awe of... you can tell when people are being real with you, and these people just aren't. 

What's weird is, is like he's trying to help me get a job by making sure I don't get the higher posting jobs that I'm very qualified to do. 

I don't need help running my business, or getting a general manager position. I especially don't need help getting that and then being poisoned later because I did something offensive, knowingly or unknowingly. He's doing things he shouldn't be, and those things are destroying my life. 

Now, for fear of being poisoned it worse, I can't even commit to another management job. I can't do what I want to be doing with me life because the things I want to do leave me suseptible to being poisoned, harassed, and worse. Which is what keeps happening. 

The thing is, I never needed help. I needed to not new puddings to the point of losing everything. And what I really want, he's never going to be able to give. I want the past 2 years back, I want my, kids back, I want my home back (except not that one now because I almost died there), I want to never have met him. I want to have never fallen in love with someone why l who wasn't who they said they were, who poisoned me and my children, I want him out of my life completely. I want to be safe in knowing that I'm not going to be mentally, emotionally, or physically abused the second I let my guard down. 

He can't give those things to me because he can't keep from doing the things he doing. 

But for now, I'll settle for a big stinking wad of cash because in a lawsuit. I've already lost what matters the most to me. I already lost the last 2 years of my kids childhood, the time I made sure to savor and be there for. He took my entire world from me.