He has been trying to kill me, and almost succeeded at least once (Drinking bleach is horrifying and painful)

Getting poisoned speaks for it's self. 

But what I haven't told many people about is the time in late summer of 2022, right after the fight when I told him that I didn't want a relationshipwith him, during the time that I have written any when I was constantly sick with all the poisoning symptoms. 

During this time, the pain was so bad...

It felt like I was drowning in a liquid quicksand of blackness, and thick spikes were stabbing me all over my body. Especially through my head. 

While in all this pain I was having convulsions on my couch.

I remember crying out for help, but it was only me and my kids, and no one to help. 

It occurred to me that I needed to call 911, but didn't know how to do it. 

The second I thought about needing an ambulance, I quickly forgot. 

Now that I have been told that I may have been poisoned by bleach by a doctor, it makes sense...

Being poisoned by bleach to the point of almost dieing, it's the most gruesome and excruciatingly painful thing someone can go through. I don't wish that horrifying experience on anyone. 

From what I've read, the convulsions happen before death. That's a sign of overdose, I was overdosing and never even knew I drank or took anything, and that's a scary thought within it's self.

I know have poison control on my contacts list. 

The things is, I've been being poisoned repetitively with presumably bleach

He not only did this to me, but my kids showed signs of it looking back at it. And our pets. This is why I can't be around my kids, most likely they were poisoned because he was urban to have food or drinks in my home poisoned to get to me... they should have never have had to go through that kind of horrifying experience. 

I'm also concerned that others that live with me will be poisoned by him trying to get to me. 

I think my grandma was when I lived with her and my dad several years ago. She was having lots of coughing and trouble with her urinary tract that doctors couldn't figure out. I didn't eat or drink much at the house then, but she did. 

I don't leave any food or drink that can be tampered with here where I live now. The refrigerator in the main house gets used only by the people living in the main house. I can't live under the same roof as others because that may put other people in danger of being harmed by him trying to harm me. 

*for the record as soon as I realized that i may have been poisoned (I realized it in October 2024) and that my kids may have been too,I sent a letter to CPS to report it. It was done quietly by letter instead of online where the hacker could see so they could investigate it with less chance of him finding out and trying to disrupt their investigation. I told no one I was reporting it for my child's safety... it included my concerns about his own child's, since he's demented and dangerous. 

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