It's hard to report your abuse when he hired fake cops... Self Advocating

It's hard to report your own abuse. It's hard enough to report it under "normal" circumstances. When the abuser hasn't been hiring cops, doctors and therapists to try to make you think you're crazy, have no proof, or are not actually in danger. 

The amount of ptsd and fear that arises when you're actually one of the dv victims that are actively trying to get help getting away from your abuser and realizing that he has the resources to make sure it's hard as hell because he always has tabs on you no matter where he is or what he doing, getting away is daunting.

 I'm sick to my stomach often out of fear that next time he gets mad and decides to get someone to poison me it could be the least time. I could end up on the ground having convulsions again and not wake back up, ever. 

It's harder when these things are happening. And known that when you tell the fake hired people the truth, you still get punished with attempts of Poisoning or messing with my devices, or the harassments being more disruptive. So when you finally get to tell a real,  unpaid cop or other professional that can actually help you get this sick fuck to leave you alone, what happens then?

But, I'm working on it. On self advocating, on getting the word out. It just takes little steps, and consistency. The more you do it, the easier it gets. 

Today, I left my handouts of links many places. Places he doesn't visit, places he knows people that he may have convinced to participate in performances aimed at harassing me, sent an email to a business associate so they knew what kind of person they were in business with, left a flyer at the sheriff's department... now that I can't trust my own police station in the town I live in, it has to be escalated to the sheriff. 

But, I'm putting it out there. A dangerous monster that will use his resources to poison unsuspecting women, children and pets shouldn't be allowed to be so active in our society. 

He's a danger to others and needs to be put away. 

So, I keep finding different and new ways of letting people know. 

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