Journal Entry for 7/21/25

This is the kind of lunacy I have to deal with when I ever decide to be on social media. 

On one of his fake profiles he's trying to have some kind of connection work me by saying what is happening to me is happening to him... I was recently in Cherokee nation and ended up reporting something out there, which is why his fake profile is using that as their location.

The other is trying to gaslight me into thinking I am schizophrenic. I'm 43, never been diagnosed with a severe mental illness, have been to a behavioral hospital for wanting to kill myself because of this lunatic not leaving me alone and causing me to lose everything. 

This is something a Borderline will do when they are actually having a psychotic episode, they think the person they are attached to is psychotic and will project their psychosis onto that person. So, he was probably psychotic when he wrote that one. 

All this, in addition to trying to get a response or if me now that I no longer respond to comments on social media and just causing drama, once again, for attention and a response... I'm so stuck of not being able to live my life the way I want because some man decided it is so. 

*Updated 7/22: forgot to mention that the one about schizophrenia was on my art fb page, it wasn't even in response to any posts about stalking.

* This isn't ok, I'm not ok with any of this. It's not cool, exciting or special that I'm bring stalked by this lunatic. It's stressful, exhausting and I want it to stop. I want nothing to do with this guy, at all. 







*Update 7/23/25

And the video admitting to posting comments on my page to try to make me think I'm schizophrenic... this is just ridiculous, it's unwanted attention and behaviors that I'm actively trying to get him arrested for everything he's done so he'll finally leave me alone. I'm so stuck of this and sick of him thinking he has a right to be in my life in any way shape or form. He's not. 

I just want him out of my life so I can build my life back up. He destroyed everything and thinks that I am still in love with it want him for some reason. I don't, I just want him to go away and stop messing with my life. 

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