Journal Entry for 7/25/25
I actually am a bit shocked that he's still doing this... I've 18k videos about me, that's just obsessive and really gross. And some still pretending we're still together... i haven't seen the guy in 2 years. And haven't so much as touched him in 3. Nor will I ever. He's a disgusting monster of a person.
And what about that one that says not to contact him while I hate him??? I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM.
I dint want to see him, talk to him, contact him, nothing...
I want him out of my life and to leave me alone. He's disgusting.
There was this one time, while we were dating back in 2022, that a brick got moved in my back yard.
Ely and I had started a fire pit by making a circle of bricks.
I had noticed it on my own and assumed that the boy that lived down the street must have been in my backyard. He was on the spectrum and seemed to have some boundary issues.
I simply just put a kick on my gate so he couldn't get in again.
When Ely came over and pointed out that the brick had been moved, I simply stated that I thought the boy had done it and locked the gate.
He seemed angry that I had said that. I originally thought he was mad at the boy, but now I think that he was mad that it didn't bother or scare me.
I lived in a very safe neighborhood at the time and didn't think it was a sign of a serious threat. But in addition to that, my car has been gone through when I first moved in (nothing was taken, I didn't really have anything in it to take and just thought it must have been some kids since we lived closer to the schools). And, one night while Ely and I were dating, someone out something banged on my son's bedroom window.
That last one did freak me out. But I tried not to let my kid know. Ely was supposedly in McKinney, the town just north of us. But when I told him what happened he never responded. He drove all the way back to Arlington before responding to my texts. I had to have my brother in law come check it out.
These are all things stalkers have been known to do to get a response from their victims. Although those are things I didn't think twice about at the time, because I didn't know I was being stalked by the man I had been seeing, that I allowed in my home, gave a key to as well as access to my kids! Now I know they must have been things he was doing to kill the boredom of not being recognized as being a stalker.
They were great tactics to give him more of a thrill, to make his behaviors feel more dangerous or something grim what I've read about stalkers behaviors.
I guess after over a decade of messing up my life he needed more to get pleasure from it. It's sickening.
