Journal Entry for 7/26/25

●I'm very certain that this psychopath is blocking my communications to family and my kids all because he's butt hurt that I dint spend time with any of them specifically BECAUSE he uses, manipulates or poisons them to abuse me further.

It's like he thinks that I'm going to think they they are mad and don't want to talk to me. When if anything my two boys would probably give anything to get this freak out if our lives so they can safely be with me again. 

His "punishments" make no sense, and are so easy to spot now that I know what and who he is that it's laughable. 

● It seems like I'm getting over another poisoning. The only time I can think of that it would have happened would be with my bottle water delivery. As soon as I realized my mouth was irritated, being unusually tired and the hazy thinking I stated bringing home fresh water for the night every day. 

It takes weeks to get over the impact of whatever he using. 1-2 weeks of nausea, stomach and chest pain. Now I'm in the headache and joint pain phase. That must be my body finishing up processing the chemicals. 

Still tired but the pain makes it hard to sleep even with Tylenol or advil.

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