Journal Entry for 8/5/25: Planning ahead for emergencies...

I'm done with all of this. Why won't he just let me live my life in peace?

Here's a text to my mom, sister, brother and sister in law that explains. I didn't bother reporting this incident, but mostly because there's no point. The Lake Dallas Police department don't always document my calls, or they are being hyjacked by "dispatch" that have a "Police officer" call back and say some really weird things. Whoever it is they are not helpful. 

He's posting things on his videos telling me to go to him, like he is trying to make it seem like he's trying to control me to go find him. But after last night I'm wondering if he teng to make it seem like I'm going to do that and was going to have that guy abduct me or something. 

Even if it was a random incident, the stress of everything else he's doing is too much. I just want a break from this crap. He's not even supposed to be in my life anymore, it's been years and he's still doing this. It mashed me feel like he's never going to stop. 

Am I just supposed to live the rest of my life like this? It's hell. 

On top of that, the harassment at the house was just too much. I ended up getting a motel room for myself and the cats, but I can only stay at this one for one night because they are pet friendly only to dogs, pigs and miniature horses apparently. 

This is just to much stress. 

I've done what the Domestic Violence Hotline told me because of this and pushed a "Go bag", that's so that if something happens I can just grab it and go. It has everything I need in it. 

Also, since it seems like he's doing things to make it harder for me to survive financially and to possibly make me homeless again, I've had to buy a tent, just in case he keeps messing up my life. 

That notice from the cide enforcement was something he did or had Sherry do I'm sure. Otherwise it would have gone to the owner and they would have come talk to me about it to avoid being fined for me being there. 

I've also planned ahead for a possible emergency, just incase he does anything to me, to where some of my family members will get contacted if I haven't paid my storage. Just so that if he does try to get me back for reporting any of his actions to the police, my step dad will know that I haven't paid the storage that I've been keeping up with for over 2 years now and he might decide to check up or report me as missing at the very least. 

And, I now keep a list of emergency numbers in the car I'm renting and in any place I'm staying. Mostly because even at the shed, I don't think there is anyone who would report me as missing unless they knew about what's going on. 

At the motel, they would probably just think I left like any other guest, lol.

I just feel like, with him seeming like his efforts to harm or control me are being more intense, that I have to cover all my bases. 

So, lots of planning for IF I'm harmed by the stalker or someone he's hired. 

I'm just so tired. No one should have to live like this. I just want my life back. 


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