I Need You My Love: How a woman survives an invisible stalker in the age of cyber crimes.

I'm thinking telling my team lead about my stalker helped. Things calmed down for the next few days after all that happened on Tuesday and Wednesday! I'm planning on telling a few more people I work with, just when I'm able to talk about out without crying.  So the rest of the week wasn't so bad. And! I got to sign the lease on my new shop suave l space for the weekends.  The features market my shop will be at has police and sheriff's on hand when the market is open and I plan to utilize them whenever needed! 

●Today was the must difficult day ever. The exchange of custody of my youngest son was finalized. When I handed him off to his dad two years ago I thought I was going to figure it what this guy did to me life, get him to leave me alone and then get things back on track within a few months. 

●At about 9:50 AM a co worker stopped me in the back area by the break room to tell me about her pet rat dieing. Pet rats, or rats in general are common themes that he likes to use at a could places I've worked. Probably a pay on words in reference to ratting people out.  ●After this, at about 10:05am while some of us were in the general merchandise rolling bins area, another co worder tapped out a tune that is the same one the stalker uses in his love letter videos on the "I need you my love" channel.  I straight to the bathroom top  cry. I'm not able to get away from him anywhere I go and all I want is for him to leave me alone! ● After I pulled myself together I went out on the floor to stock the things we pulled from the back, one of my team members asked what was up with the has cans that were picked to stock. They weren't needed anywhere on the floor. I'm pretty sure the stalker noticed that I was low on gas that morning and that I was considering if I s...

● Now that I've been more cautious, and have been reporting every little incident that could be related to my stalker, my cats seem to be doing better.  I dropped putting my own water into their bowls, I only do so when I'm about to leave three house and if I was drinking from a water bottle prior to leaving.  Say, in the morning before work, since I keep a bottle of water next to me while I'm sleeping I'll pour that into their bowls before leaving for the day.  I also check the PH levels in their water bowls often. Now that they haven't seemed to have an incident, they seem to be doing much better.  Tiger, who seems like he started to have skin problems when I was having symptoms and sharing my water with them without taking the necessary precautions first, has healed up nicely. Fur is growing where he seems like he was over grooming, possibly due to the skin irritation that the poisoning causes. It's something I noticed about myself too. When I was having this...

Apparently my stalker doesn't like what I'm doing by letting people know what's going on for my safety. And, I'm assuming, for the fact that I have been reporting him to the police and keeping accounts of actions he takes or actions that could possibly have been taken against me by him. According to one of his recent video posts over the last 24 hours.  He could also have a problem with the fact that I'm taking steps to sue my employer, who he got to participate in some performances that were abusive especially for workplace behavior and very traumatizing. I can't make myself go to any of the sandwich shop locations anymore due to the ptsd from being harassed, placed in a hostile work situation and poisoned with bleach at work.  Although, I've asked him many times to stop, he had continued to stalk, poison and harass me. I have not only confronted him in person about the videos and stalking, for which he decided to contact my sister after my visi...

The types of things my stalker is getting Pele to try to convey to me almost sees like he's tent too get people to show me that if I stay quiet and don't complain air the abuse, If I just b take it, I could have the same life that I would be ante to give to myself if he weren't stealing and abusing me... So, the first thing he did was get an old coworker of mine to yell me they could help me get a job at the sandwich shop. This was a weird thing for that particular employee to even say considering I was his boss, I left in good terms, I was excellent at my job and there was no reason for the company too not rehire me if I wanted the job.  I didn't need someone to help me get it, it was already mine if I wanted it.  I could tell that my old friend had been on contact with my abuser, usually those who have been either gas light me, or seem like what I'm telling them about him is some kind of amazing secret or something to be in awe of... you can tell when people are ...

I've been trying to be pretty candid about what I'm going through. I'm going to need to be when I go to court and know that writting it all down will help my attorney explain what kind of effect my abuser had on my life. And what I really lost.  I lived in a 1,800 soft home in a town where the average household income is currently about $120k per year.  After living on the streets, due to my stalker's interference in my life, and having to move out of the motels I was living in when I first got a management job while trying to recover, I now live in a shed. There are some logical reasons for it. I got lucky and my mom knew some people who were willing to take me and my 6 cats (somehow still had those after everything that has happened) in for a very cheap rental fee if only $350/ month which I am grateful for considering if I get behind due to his ability to continue to destroy my life each time I recover a little bit I'm not so far behind that I can't catch up ...

So, from what I've been able to gather, when my abuser convinces people to be abusive, or harass me, or even poison me, he uses my own actions as an excuse.  At the Sandwich shop I worked at there was talk of Poisoning rats. We actually did have some nice and rats, however, the fact that fight before I was rushed to the hospital right after filing a formal complaint and just after my manager and coworker discussed how there have been fewer rats after pest control came in and gave them poison. At which point the coworker stated that the poison is eaten by the rat and then the rat goes somewhere else and later dies. Leads me to believe the situation was being used to gave a double meaning.  For the sake of their performance, I was the rat. They were being compensated for their participation in my abuse and as such were being convinced that I was ratting them out and ruining their gun and opportunity. Which was a way for the stalker to manipulate my coworkers into doing things to...

● I drove through the town I lived in with my kids today to go see me son at work. He just became a GM, at only 18! I couldn't be more proud! I can't, however, drove through that town without crying. It's not just about what happened while I lived there. It's about what continued to happen after I left.  Some of my family still lives there. And every visit out there after that resulted in being further gas lit, or blamed for my own abuse, attempts to convince me I needed to go to the psych ward, indirect threats to my health if I talk about what's going on by him getting people to cough at specific times, or someone in some way continuing to participate in my stalker's sick game.  ● It seems like any time I try to get people to talk about what they know, because I noticed the behaviors and the odd little stories and things people tell me and how they are not about them, they get so defensive. I'm trying to get information about what they know about crimes HE...

These Journal entries show some of what he does to me at work.  He gets my coworkers to participate in performances. In one of these entries it explains how he hacked the work phone then got someone to come into the shop I worked at to do things the let me know he's hacked into the IPhone at work.  Another shows how he even got the store owners to do specific things to indirectly threaten me. In their defense, I'm sure he just had them put in the red lights with some kind of lie or manipulative excuse. But what he was really doing was trying to keep me from going to that location, most likely since that's where the owners usually were. He didn't want me to tell them more or explain to them what he doing.  Upon bringing up my concerns, since my boss knew I had been being bothered by him and I had already told her that he uses other people to harass me, I was immediately fired.  The concern was brought up to HR, and it was HR that fired me while trying to twist my word...

Here's the indie movie my stalker was in. It's called King Judith. He was the Mime... I triggered myself trying to watch it last night to e if I recognized anyone else he worked with. Just incase he used any of these actors to stalk me with.  He's used actors to gas light me by having them play the parts of cops, doctors, paramedics, therapists... as well as many other things.  I was harassed by cops that weren't cops, kicked out of my own estate sale that I needed to do to keep myself from living in the streets in April of 2023. The "police officer" showed up with my clients supposed parents, who actually looked nothing like her note that I think about it. The reason I now know it was an actor was because of three things: 1) The police officer came to the how to kick me out alone. They don't handle potential disputes alone.  2) He left before I was done packing up and leaving the estate sales location... they dint do that either, just incase there's f...

So, Ely Sellers aka Joseph Chapman has been using the theatrical community to abuse me? It's that what was happening? Basically from what I've been able to gather, my stalker gets people to mess with me and convinces them all it's a performance so that no matter what I say or do to try to make them leave me alone they just go along with it like you learn to do in improve... and he able to do that because he had been on indi films.  That's why the one police actor looked at me funny when the prop ambulance picked me up after air passed out in front of one of the Parkland buildings. I mentioned his name and the cop looked at me weird, I knew they weren't behaving like real cops... then some doctor claiming to be my doctor, calls the paramedic stating that he's on his wadi and to wait... which is something a doctor would never do and how on earth would my doctor know I was passed out from whatever the hell he got people to put in my drink which was probably also th...

● I started going thriving my storage top have a garage sale and downsize what's left of the remnants of the life I once had, the life I had with my kids. The life I loved.  Aside from the things that belonged to the kids that they now have with them, this is so that I was able to salvage while I was being poisoned to the point that I couldn't work or physically move anything when I was being kicked out of my homes because of the things he did to us. This 5x10ft storage unit, only half full, and some of it are things I've aquired after he destroyed everything I cared about.  Just this and somehow my cats, who I believe he also keeps having poisoned (I now check and change their water bowls out regularly just in case) Honestly, about 2/3 of this is what was left over.  I often think of things I loved or used often that I no longer have. Things that had meaning and memories attached that are no longer here. Things like my tub full of Christmas ornaments the kids...

Friday night on 3/14/25 I went to 7-11 and got a drink, then went to Taco Bell for a bean burrito.  Logged onto Doordash At 6:02pm I got my first order. At 6:29pm I logged off and sent to QT I picked up a QT cup from this morning from the for of my car, went in and rinsed it then filled it with diet coke and got a snack. 6:44pm I Logged back into doordash and got a double order from the Pizza Hut located on: 7650 S Interstate 35 #100, Corinth, TX 76210 I was in there for just a little while, the poisoning could have happened then. But, I really don't think so since I'm sure I would have continued to drink my drink after getting back into the car. I had no symptoms while doing my deliveries. Dropped off the first order to a house, so I would have seen if someone got into my car.  The second order was at an indoor apartment complex: Millennium place 6651 S, I-35E, Corinth, TX 76210 I had to go on and go to the 3rd floor, this would have been a more likely place for the poisoning...

10:30pm  Well, my mouth is irritated. I tend to start holding air in my mouth due to the irritation, that's typically my first sign before the other symptoms start.  Also,  I'm suddenly tired and my thoughts are a little scattered. My throat is a bit irritated again too. I think I may have gotten ahold of whatever he has someone using on me again.  He tends to have someone do this (if he isn't doing it himself) when I talk about it, or when he is randomly offended by who the hell knows what, or maybe sometimes when he just feels like it... He's sick and this is messed up. The only thing I can think of is that I didn't clean out the cup I used for a refill at the gas station after it had day on my car for a few a good part of the day. I usually rinse out my cups very well or just get a new one.  Either that or something was done to the packaged zebra cakes I had at home. They were still in the wrapper so I thought they would be safe. But, if someone used a s...

●So, turns out that none of the new hires got paid for their orientation day, it'll be on our next check.  Which just goes to show how being stalked and harassed for the past couple years messed with me perception of everything that happens around me.  It impacts my life in a daily basis and had warped my reality. Something that may continue for years to come even if the stalking stops for good. It's something that will never be over for me, even when it's over.  ● I've almost forgot to document this incident from March 9th. I finally decided to get back on fb so I can use some of the features and connect with friends again.  This is either a fake profile in which he is having the profile of someone I know Copied. Or, he is convincing the person to message me this.  Just a couple of days after downloading and logging back on I get this message from a long time "friend" who I've never met in person.  The stalker has on several occasions shared with me motiv...